There was laughter in the Dawson household over the festive season - but nowhere near as much as there was when comic genius Les Dawson was alive, his widow Tracy Dawson reveals.
“Christmas is always difficult for us. Les loved it, he always did pantomime, he was always the dame, and loved to entertain the children.”
She and daughter Charlotte – who was a baby when the legendary comedian died in 1993 of a heart attack aged 62 – recently moved from the family home in Lytham, to a bungalow nearby. But there are still memories of her late husband everywhere, in photos, his piano, books and other memorabilia.
Tracy’s world fell apart when, on June 10, 1993, Les was in Manchester for a medical check-up as a prelude for trying for another child. Waiting in a cubicle, he asked Tracy if she could get him a newspaper. When she returned her husband of four years was dead from a massive heart attack.
“It doesn’t feel like 20 years since his death,” Tracy, 61, reflects.
“Everything feels like yesterday. I miss him terribly. The circumstances of his death came as such a shock. You try to move on and then it comes back again. I still have dark days.”
During the recent move, she discovered some notes Les had typed and hand-written for Charlotte’s legacy. She and Charlotte decided to compile some of the previously unpublished material to create Les Dawson’s Joke Book.
Charlotte said: “Going through the material, I felt I got to know him a lot more. We shed tears some of the time, but they were tears of happiness deep down.”
Tracy added: “People still want to know about Les. He was way ahead of his time in the material he wrote.
“It was hard going through his papers and notes and we found a lot of personal stuff as well.
“He’d left a little day-to-day diary of his time with Charlotte. He only knew her for eight months before he died.”
Over the years, some of Tracy’s attempts to keep his memory alive may be considered by some as bizarre. After his death, she installed a full-size cardboard cut-out of the comedian in Charlotte’s nursery, so the baby would come to recognise him as her dad.
Charlotte said: “People said the cardboard cut-out was a bit freaky but I don’t think it was. I’m very proud I can call him my dad.
“It’s been hard growing up without him. Take away the name and what he did, it’s hard enough growing up without a father, but when I found out who he was I felt so proud and happy that I had this amazing legacy.”
Each anniversary of his death, mum and daughter go to the church where Tracy and Les were married, and also visit his memorial statue in St Annes to join fans in paying their respects.
Les and Tracy first met when Tracy was working as a barmaid in a hotel, where the star used to drown his sorrows as his first wife, Meg, succumbed to cancer. They married in 1989, following a three-year romance, and were thrilled to be blessed with a child.
Keeping Les’s memory alive, and ploughing her energy into charity work, has helped Tracy cope.
“I just didn’t know how to cope without him. Then all the letters came from charities for the work Les did, and they asked me to take part. I put all my energy into charity work.
“It doesn’t get easier with each anniversary.
“I am coping, but he’s so much still alive. He was one of the great comics of his time.”
Tracy and Charlotte know they face a tough year in 2013, the 20th anniversary of Dawson’s death, but Charlotte remains optimistic.
“It’s going to be a hard, sad year, but you have to think of the positive side of it - that his memory still lives on.
“I couldn’t wish for anything better than that.”
Les Dawson’s Joke Book, compiled by Tracy and Charlotte Dawson, is available now published by Michael O’Mara, priced £9.99.